why is it that when I don't come online,
the rest of the world seems to be online.
and when I do come online,
the rest of the world seems to be telling me,
"hello, we have better things to do than come online."

do you know I used to picture God?
I used to picture him with a blue-coloured cone-shaped hat with stars on it,
wearing a long blue robe and he has long white beard.
in his hand, he has a wand.
and that is why I got the fucking shock of my life when the first Harry Potter movie came out.
Professor Dumbledore looks exactly like my God!
and you know, the most embarassing thing is that I still picture God like that.
and when it's raining heavily with lighting and thunder,
to me, it means God is angry.
(don't ask why. I have no idea too. some childhood thing, i think.)
and when God is angry,
I picture him like Zeus.

and talking about childhood thing,
have I ever told you about all the rubbish that fadilah taught/told me when I was young?

I rmb asking her, why is the moon following us?
we were inside the car at that time.
she replied, "it's following us because you keep looking at it."
so I stopped looking at the moon because she made it sound like the moon was chasing after me because I was looking at it.

and then, one day I asked her,
"what does SBS stand for?"
and she said, "Super Bus Super."
and I believed her.
and the other day when I asked her about it,
she defended herself by saying,
"what? your father teach me one what!"
KNN know.

but hey, I taught my brother stupid things too.
HA HA HA.
there was one time when we saw a bee.
my brother and I crouched to take a closer look.
then I told my brother,
"eh, touch lah."
he was damn young at that time okay.
at first he was reluctant to do so.
but after much forcing from me,
he finally touched it with his thumb.
the next thing I knew,
we were walking home and he was crying and holding out his sore thumb.
so poor thing right?
hahahahahahaha.
and he was so damn cute when he was young lah.
I shall post it here later on.
(please take not that my 'later on' can take up to a mnth later.)
unlike me.
I looked like a China girl when I was young.
and I often had the 'bowl' hairstyle.
like as if my father put a bowl on my head and snipped whatever hair was sticking out of the bowl.
god, I hated that hairstyle.